Oh the life. I am reminded that in simple ways, I can find delight and joy in my heart. Even just for a simple gesture of care, may it be a hug or a pat; a lazy cat purring towards you—sharing the heat and all the cuddly-ness you want feel inside; fireworks, yes those brilliant lights in the sky!
Thanks for the reminder of a friend. :-)
Sometimes in life, we have to think of the decisions we are ought to make. Little decisions really count. Perhaps the decision to read a book in a particular time instead of facing the computer the whole day; the decision to eat on time that might have been a cause for a dysfunctional tummy if not taken seriously; or the decision to feel an emotion towards a person.
Life’s happiness, simply saying, won’t always depend on someone else’s existence (except God’s since it’s a given). People come and go, we feel things we ought to feel and I think that’s normal. But sometimes, we need to realize that we shouldn’t be swallowed by the thought of something that would satisfy our earthly needs. We should decide and stand firm about it.
I believe we are called to discern for things God has finely prepared for us. We are called to have faith in Him despite the mixed emotions we feel. He doesn’t choose anyone, in fact, He is waiting for us to decide and accept and follow Him. I say, no matter what emotion we are feeling, the grace and blessing of God will always stay. And forever will be.
10 days after.
I’d like to thank this first job for letting me see how the real world works. For the people that I have worked with, for the different teams I was with, for the learning everyday. It has always been a challenge for me to compose myself and gather my confidence everyday, meeting and dealing with new people — everyday.
I’m glad I survived. :-)
Seems cliche for someone who came from a conference, feeling the inspiration and the hangover of the hype but what I know is that, THIS IS REAL. The Lord has blessed me with such grace that I just have to share it. The first weekend of my ‘funemployment’ was a new experience for me. It gave me a new perspective on how I should live my life, in a way the risen Christ wants me to.
Anyhow, there’s really a lot of things I wanted to share to you but I have to rest up. Hehe. :) I’m still in Manila though, crashing a friend’s apartment but will then be leaving Monday night.
I’ll keep you posted with the journey that I had and will have, in a few days.
God bless and with love,
Finally after a month! #transcriptofrecords #iska #college #upian #personal
What’s Keeping Me Excited?
It’s around 1:30 am now and here I am, trying to write a sensible yet more personal memory of how things are going on and how they’ll be going on in the future. I actually think more about the future now (which makes me kind of optimistic, I think?). I actually just rendered my last day at work a few hours ago but I still can’t get the hang of it. You see, letting go is kind of a difficult stage. There would be series of adjustments here and there especially with the schedule that you have (knowing that you have all the time in the world, as of the moment). The fear of starting over is also creeping in but don’t get me wrong, it also keeps me excited.
The question of, “Where are you going to do next?” continues to pop up every time I think about me quitting work. It’s not about not liking the job, but for me it’s about moving on. I guess it’s safe to say that I have done enough (so to speak) of which I think is safer at my end, if you know what I mean.
Now, what’s keeping me excited? Hmmm. I guess the thought of exploring more new things is one. And also spending more time with the family is too. I have pondered that I’ve been keeping a lot of things within myself too that I needed to let them all out thru a vacation. Yes, I need a break. And a KitKat.
What keeps me excited for this month too is the YFC ILC Conference. It’s been, like, two years since that last time I attended one. And I believe that this year, as what Pope Benedict said as “the year of Faith”, I believe that this year is an affirmation for me to be of more service to Him. It’s really about Him and it’s all about giving back to Him - everything.
I wonder what’s in store for me for the months and years to come. But I know one thing’s for sure, it’s gonna be a good year. No, not just that, but a fruitful, inspiring and more exciting year. And I would be patiently waiting.
“The most important kind of freedom is to be what you really are. You trade in your reality for a role. You trade in your sense for an act. You give up your ability to feel, and in exchange, put on a mask. There can’t be any large-scale revolution until there’s a personal revolution, on an individual level. It’s got to happen inside first.”
- Jim Morrison
I can hardly remember the last time I laughed so hard that I almost cried and rolled on the floor. I wanted to experience that again as much as I experience crying, maybe over sleep or at a random time.ed
A Tuesday with St. Therese
Another Tuesday to spend a day off from work, I was tossing and turning in my bed on what I should do for the day for it to be productive. I was checking on my iPod’s clock which said 7:34 am, I realized I missed one routine that I should have done: pray. So I did. I prayed and gave thanks for a day of light, for the dreams I had last night, for the smiles of my mom and brother, for the laughter of kids outside the house, for the music I heard over the radio, for the air I am breathing, for you. Yes, for you.
As I was getting ready for breakfast, a friend texted me that he wasn’t feeling well. Man, that feeling sucks. I just hope he’s okey now.
So I had my itinerary in my head for the day, I decided to finish my clearance and T.O.R. Going to church wasn’t really part of my usual weekday but I was told St. Therese’s relics are at the Carmelite Monastery. So I had that on my itinerary too.
Everything went fine through out the day. I even had the chance to hangout in school and read a book. The mass at Carmelite Monastery was refreshing too. Here’s a gist of the priest’s homily:
"Always remember, when God sends you an ordeal in your life, He doesn’t put you in a situation where you can’t have the capacity to handle it. Always remember, before you believed in God, God believed in you first. Before you loved God, God loved you first."
The homily was also about having the humility to accept the mistakes we have done, to repent for the sins we have committed and to prepare ourselves for the Lenten season.
Hmmm. Basically today was another day full of inspiration. I hope this goes on every day.
I hope you are okey. :-)
Blessings and Gratitude
So we just moved in to a new house and yey! we’re on our first week! So far, I love the new place. It feels like I’m in my hometown which is kinda nostalgic. I also like the idea of riding a tricycle to-and-fro because it feels like I’m back in the province again. Hehe.
Anyhow, I know I haven’t been writing much these days because I don’t really feel like writing crappy stuff. Urk. Like this. Meh. But seriously, we don’t have an internet connection at home yet. Duh. Haha. And oh! Yeah, I just came back from Manila for the Paramore concert and the SFC iCon over the weekend (which was after the Valentine week). I am so happy to share what happened during that weekend though; I was able to see Hayley Williams, Taylor York and Jeremy Davis up close, not mentioning the pick that I got from Jeremy! Weeee!
After the rock and roll party, I attended the Singles for Christ Conference with my chapter mates hailing from Cebu. It was my first, as part of the SFC community, to attend the iCon which is absolutely refreshing and inspiring. I guess that’s just what I needed after a year of spiritual dryness, so yeah. Thank God for this community.
I am actually so grateful for the blessings which occurred to me the past few days. I just contain them. At the same time, I’m happy to say that life’s been changing (positively) now that I have my set goals for the year. Trying to put myself on a positive note everyday is something that I am also achieving and by God’s grace, I think I’m doing it right. :-)
Thank God for music, friends, food and more food! February’s almost over (ooh, it’s a short month though and March is fast approaching). How’s it going so far?
I hope and pray you’re doing it right.
Moving Out in 9, 8, 7…
So the folks finally decided to find a new place to live in, thanks to a friend who had a spare flat. I can’t wait to move out and transfer to the new house where I can be in a new environment and in a more comfortable place.
I’ve been asking and praying this a lot and yes, I agree on timing. God’s timing.
Now, we’re slowly packing up the stuff needed and we’re cleaning up too. Had a couple of things to fix and clean though, so yeah. We’re also looking for some new stuff for the place; furnitures and all, to add up a bit of aesthetics in the area. :-) I think this will be fun.
New place. New environment…hopefully new life.
It’s my caution not the cold
There’s no other hand that I would rather hold
The climate changes, I’m singing for strangers about you
Don’t keep time, slow the pace
Honey hold on if you can
The bets are getting surer now
That you’re my man
— Brooke Fraser, Love is Waiting
I just realized how insensitive I am when it comes to my mom. A simple status message from her made me cry so hard like a child. I am so guilty about all the things I’ve done to her, which caused her pain. I have been such a bad daughter to her that I inflicted so much pain without knowing what the consequences are.
Looking Forward to 2013…and counting!
- roller skates
- badminton racket
- new pair of rubber shoes
- sports shorts (lol)
- attend ILC
- watch Paramore live
- enjoy work
- write more songs
- sing more songs
- become more active on YFC/SFC activities
- find happiness
- continue my instaxwall
- find a new and bigger place
- buy myself another BB! *wishful thinking*
- have another camera! *winks*
- meet new people!
Just an initial list of the things I look forward to this year. I might actually add some new things up while on the process of thinking what to dos and to enjoy. :-)
I haven’t been writing for quite a while and I think I’ve been flooding your dashboards with some Instagram stuff that are automatically shared. I guess it’s safe to say that I have been more active on taking photos of what I do than literally typing them down here and letting you read some crappy musings.
Lately it has been quite a struggle for me to keep up with things I do everyday. Glad I had let it out, thanks to a good friend out there (shout out to @myatzkie) who has been guiding me and supporting me.
I am also glad I finally had the courage to tell my parents (esp my mom) about what I’ve been feeling all along. It’s kind of a relief since I totally need encouragements and support now.
I hope everything will be alright. Maybe not today but eventually.
Let’s cheers to our last 2012 month. :-)