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On Christmases

Like the usual Christmas that I have grown up with for almost 15 years, it has always been me, my mom and Jason spending the holidays together. Well, pop’s still with us through Skype or some other communication means just to have a feel of him being around, but normally, it has always been the three of us. I admit that I always get envious of people celebrating Christmas with their relatives, much joy and company to delight themselves with. That is why sometimes, I often avoid conversations with people whom I know are very much complete during the holidays. What I’m still thankful for is the fact that I get to look forward for every Christmas that I spend with my family, despite of how small we are in number or how we get together over dinner and reminisce stuff and laugh them off; I’m still thankful for the intimate ways of how we share each others’ lives for the past year and awaiting for a new year to come ahead of us. But most of all, I am thankful that this season is still and will always be about Jesus Christ and his existence in the world.

Happy Holidays, friends. :-)

Meh. Not Really.

Your view on yourself:

You are down-to-earth and people like you because you are so straightforward. You are an efficient problem solver because you will listen to both sides of an argument before making a decision that usually appeals to both parties.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You are a true romantic. When you are in love, you will do anything and everything to keep your love true.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:

You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that’s why you’ll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education

You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:

You’re a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you’ll be set for life.

How do you view success:

You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don’t succeed. Don’t give up when you haven’t yet even started! Be courageous.

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long.

Tried this thing: 

but I am not entirely convinced. Haha!

“Have you ever felt tired of yourself because of not being honest?”

You were standing a few inches in front of me with a flower at hand, smiling. I started to think what was up with you. As you were there, gripping that red flower with such excitement that I can literally see in your eyes, you whispered words to my innocent ears, expecting some delight out of the flowery words you blurted.

At first, I thought those were the sweetest phrases any woman would be so happy to hear.

Yes. They were.

But not for me.

Because after all, you just needed me to be your wing-woman to win some other girl’s heart.

The pavement has been wet for a few hours now. The rain was really hard on it as if it wanted to break the ground and burst it open. Firm as it may seem, it becomes fragile at some point. As the rain pounds, the ground wants to reinforce itself from the pressure.


Umbrellas. Boots. Raincoats. 

Holdings hands, tight hugs and the never-ending kisses.

Where art thou?

I think it’s my turn to decide

Whether I want to end up being just this Or end up being that. I’m gonna travel the world with all my might Or get a glimpse of how the universe conspires. I’ll taste the rain and embrace myself under it Let it flow through my wet and lousy body. I’ll fly into the sky just like the red balloon Without something to distract the way of where it goes. I don’t care whether you’ll like this or not But I’m going to stand up and give it a shot.

Ilabas ang kalokohan! Yeeehaaaww!!

Ilabas ang kalokohan! Yeeehaaaww!!

I was the selfish one.

Holy cow. I’m wearing dresses now.

Just for 5 Seconds

Hey you. You almost got me on that first glance. Well, I think you did got me…but that was like, 5 seconds max? It’s very funny to say this but I liked you. I like that tiny glance you did because at least for me, there was one person who looked at me that way, perhaps.

I melted. But just for 5 seconds.

I smirked at that thought. Giggles came in, rushing through within me. But I thought it was fake. It was a facade. You were a charlatan. And I think I was too, just for 5 seconds.


Sometimes I picture myself reading a book, quietly, underneath a tree, on a hill. With butterflies flying all over, with the wind caressing my cheeks and on my lovely floral vintage dress. Wearing that thrift-ed DMs boots and with sky just enough to make me flush.


Random Things (setting Pay Day as a subject)

  • Mango Float
  • Lumpia
  • Pancit
  • Tinola
  • Real Steel
  • One Day
  • Vans
  • socks
  • ice cream
  • chocolates
  • groceries
  • bidjokeeee!

Deep Thoughts Rushing In

I can’t compose myself now as much as I can before. I used to have these random thoughts that I could make use to complete a whole paragraph, but now, it seems that I’ve been drained. My mind’s quite fed up (or empty?) from the things that I am not usually doing right now or maybe just because I’m still on the denial-adjusting stage of my life that everything seems fleeting.

Yes, fleeting.

Just a few hours ago, I had a rough day heading home. I really felt shitty and I don’t know why. While walking out from the store, I realized that I am alone and I kept thinking where to go. It’s not literal but I guess you get the point.

Oh well, I think I just need some more inspiration, some more encouragement, some more adventure so I could get back to my old self.

Oh, what was I again?


G’nyt, folks.

I just realized how pathetic I am.

So I’m planning to watch One Day all by myself if I get to have my paycheck on the 5th. Another date with myself would be a bittersweet one for me since I am back in Cebu and the boyfriend’s far far away. 

Oh well, I guess I’m on my weakest turning point again. Lalala. Or not.